yet again

How many times have I posted this picture?
School has started again, it's my third day of school, and I'm feeling as if it's already the third month.

No one has any idea how much I HATE school, and I am writing this with much tears of agony in my eyes now.

I am not kidding when I said I am upset with school.

I am not trying to gain any sympathy when I say I'm tired.

I am serious.

This semester is going to be the worst semester I ever had. This is worse than taking 5 Literature modules back in my first year. Worse, I still have one elective pending for approval. If I don't get it, I will either NOT graduate, or I'll have 48 hours to hunt for an elective (which is definitely something I won't enjoy studying, like some science or engineering module). What to do? Choose the latter, duh. Who wants to stay on for another semester just to clear ONE elective that's only worth 3AUs?

Doesn't help that I'm falling sick during this first week of school, and CNY is just the next week. No, CNY is not fun when you have work on hand and you can't use the holidays to complete the work. CNY tires the body and makes the body not want to do anymore work. CNY this year will just make school even more depressing.

Even worse, the school has invited a renowned local author to teach the Fiction writing class, and my classmates ALL have work in progress except for me. The last time I wrote fiction was Primary School Composition.

My friends from the same cohort are all enjoying themselves now with just a couple of modules. Am I stupid to have opted out of FYP? Not regretting the decision, though. But I hate it when I have to explain why I opted out, and when I get sympathetic stares from some people. What's there to be sympathetic about?

I'm really on the verge of bursting with the thought of what is to come in the next 13 weeks. People tell me that school is better than work life. Yes I know that. But school has its own problems too.

I'm really sick of school. Who understands?

My Father, My Provider

It's amazing how God showed Himself worthy and mighty today, just after the morning sermon on God's provision for the new year.

Since last November, I didn't have a stable pocket money because there were no more tuition classes. I assumed that I would be following up one of the classes in 2011, but to my dismay, I did not receive anymore updates from the tuition centre, and hence, I came to the conclusion that I will not have any pocket money to see me through my last semester of school. (Well, I could ask my parents but I don't like being in debt).

During lunchtime today, I received a call from the tuition centre, reminding me to teach on Tuesday evening. The first response I gave over the phone was not of joy, but of sarcasm because I had no idea at all that I was supposed to teach in 2011. D reminded me of the morning's sermon, and in my heart I felt so bad for not having the heart of thanks when I got the phonecall.

Thinking back, God has provided for me since the tuition classes ended. The tuition classes have been quite a huge source of my pocket money for the past year and a half, so when the classes ended during the last week of October, I knew that for November and December, I'm gonna be very poor. But God being God, was so good to me. He gave me a new student to teach (without me having to travel out of my house!), and relief job or a few days at a student centre where I used to work.


My faith may run dry, but God's provisions never run out of stock!