Wow, I'm starting school tomorrow. It seems so surreal, thinking back on JC days. Those roller-coaster days. Time past really fast..I still remember my first day of school, and going for orientation. I remember having a bunch of classmates that aren't too happy with their fate in JJC. I remember having bad experiences during J1 days with that civics tutor. I remember those days in J2 where we mugged like mad, staying back in the school library to do revision. I remember the terrible experiences with Euro Hist tutor.. Boy she still gives me the creeps. I remember having Cheddar and Brocoli soup every Friday... I remember many many more.

From tomorrow onwards, I will be on my own.. Everything is about independence, and I'm really scared, but at the same time excited, to start my tertiary life. I'm still very confused about registration for subjects, but I guess I will see the light sooner or later. Seems like when I thought I know everything from head to toe, I get people asking me questions and I become confused all over again.

Writing an editorial is not easy at all. For the first time, I realised my heart beating really fast as I receive those comments from the chief editor. I am having second thoughts now.

On a happier note, God answered a prayer that I never really prayed for. He gave me not one, but two tuition assignments. Good money, since it's back to back tuition at the same house. I guess He knows that I'm not prepared to work at the Canteen in school. I guess He knows how tired I'll be. It's amazing. The call from the tuition agent just came out of the blue.

I'm scared though.. I'm afraid of teaching the wrong stuff.. I have one week to "practice" :)

Oxymoron feelings have overwhelmed me, yet again.

On a random note...

Music and Lyrics, Hugh Grant & Haley Bennett

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration 
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

TTFN~!