ich vermisse dich

No monster around... :(

When you wish upon a star.....

I wanna go to Disneyland!!!

Commendable Modernist Poetry 2

I'd rather be the dust of the road
And trampled on by the feet of the poor...

I'd rather be the rivers that flow
And have washerwoman along my shore...

I'd rather be the poplars next to the river
With only sky above and the water below...

I'd rather be the miller's donkey
And have him beat me and care for me...

Rather this than to go through life
Always looking back and feeling regret...


Poet: Alberto Caeiro (Just another heteronym of Fernando Pessoa)
Translator: Richard Zenith

From The Keeper of Sheep,
ALBERTO CAIRO: THE UNWITTING MASTER,

Commendable modernist poetry 1

I'm Sorry I Don't Respond

I'm sorry I don't respond
But it isn't, after all, my fault
That I don't correspond
To the other you loved in me.

Each of us in many persons
To me I'm who I think I am,
But others see me differently
And are equally mistaken.

Don't dream me into someone else
But leave me alone, in peace!
If I don't want to find myself,
Should I want others to find me?

-26 January 1930


Poet: Fernando Pessoa
Translator: Richard Zenith

From Fernando Pessoa - Himself, THE MASK BEHIND THE MAN

And the one thing that cheered me up on this lousy day...

Looking forward to the upcoming Universal Studios Themepark in Singapore!

Objection

Overruled.

Something Other

W: One of the things I like about being with you is that I don’t feel obliged to talk all the time. It’s easy to be silent with you. Being silent with you, close but not touching, eyes closed, not communicating with any of the five senses, just knowing you’re there, feeling you’re there, something else takes over, difficult to put into words because words belong to the five senses and this is something else. Something other. An awareness. It’s hard to describe it. A feeling that you are somewhere inside me, I am somewhere inside you. Outside the senses, beyond time and space, outside ourselves. I can’t put it into words. But it’s there. Do you feel that?

M: Hm?

W: Do you feel that.

M: I’m sorry, I wasn’t listening.

-James Saunders, After Liverpool

Liminality

Feels like
I'm in
No man's land

Empty Recycle Bin?

Probably just in the Recycle Bin...
But not yet emptied.

:-(

It matters, therefore it hurts.

Right Thinking and Right Knowing

"God is most glorified in you when you are most satisfied in him. But that satisfaction in God does not glorify him unless it is based on right thinking and right knowing. God is all-satisfying because he’s a Father who gives us everything we truly need. And that kind of deep unshakeable satisfaction in our Father causes us to value things differently than the world. Therefore, we will love our neighbors. Right thinking with right feeling changes our behavior."

John Piper, www.desiringgod.org/blog

The old won't go until the new comes

In Loving Memory... =p
(2003 - 2009)
YAMAHA F-330

I remember calling this my 二老公...hahah! Ever since I started playing on this acoustic guitar, the 大老公 (classical guitar) was greatly neglected (and still is!)

Nonetheless....
Welcome to the family!

Unfortunately, I can no longer use the Yamaha. It still looks healthy but there's actually a very ugly crack at the back of its neck. The crack is getting worse and has been causing much problems to the guitar. The tuning screws are loose too, so everytime I strum a chord, the tuning goes off pretty quickly.

But as the saying goes... New is good, but old is best!

A picture speaks a thousand words

Super retro sweet! Journeyed to the school's provision shop in hope to find a bar of chocolate as a motivation to study, but I found something better. And it was the last box!

But nothing beats this. Thank you :-)

Becoming 21

I finally turned 21 yesterday, and it has been a great birthday this year. Many things to be thankful for, and though my words won't be able to fully express my heartfelt thanks and appreciation, I'll just write it here anyway.

Firstly, thank God for His grace, love and mercies. 21 years of good health, protection, and joy is indeed by God's grace, and I'm thankful for the undeserving gift of salvation, so rich yet free. Thank God for my loving family and friends.

Secondly, my Daddy and Mommy. Thank you for your patience and unconditional love. Though I've been the hot-tempered and impatient brat, you have never failed to love and teach me. Thank you for provisions and forgoing the countless debts i owe. Thanks for making my 21st birthday a memorable one. I love you both!

Thirdly, my two princess, Stella and Samantha.
Thanks jie for being my playmate since young, for always standing up for me, and even sharing with me your clothes/bags/make-up/whatever. Although we've had many petty quarrels, I'm very thankful for your understanding and patience towards me. Thank you so much for planning the whole birthday surprise, together with Liangcai. Thanks for your lovely post on your blog too!

Sam, thanks for putting up with my nonsense. I know I haven't been the nicest er jie around, and I've always been scolding you. Thanks for being so forgiving. Thanks also for your really nice pencil case. I can fit all my stuff inside now.

Fourthly, Campus Ministry.

Thank you all for the surprise celebration! I really appreciate all of you taking the time to come down for the BBQ. Thank you for allowing me to settle down in the church. May we all continue to grow in Christ!

Fifthly, all my friends and relatives for your greetings and well-wishes!

Last but definitely not the least, Mr. Forgetful (you know who you are lah).

Thank God for you, and thank you for being so understanding and loving. Thanks for everything that you have done so far. I really appreciate them. There's still a long way ahead of us for communication and mutual understanding, and I pray that God will continue to lead us in the right path together :)

Numbers 6: 24-26

"The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace."

礼物

礼物

有一件礼物，你收到没有，
眼睛看不到，你心会知道，
这一件礼物，心门外等候，
是为了你准备，别人不能收。

生命有限，时光也会走，
如果你不珍惜，机会难留，
礼物虽然好，如果你不要，
你怎么能够得到，怎么能得到？

亲爱的朋友，你是否想到，
马槽的婴孩是为你而来，
亲爱的朋友，你是否了解，
最好的朋友是人子主耶稣。

生命有限，时光也会走，
如果你不珍惜，机会难留，
礼物虽然好，如果你不要，
你怎么能够得到，怎么能得到？

Infinite Oz - Philip Straub

Till we meet again

A mistake made is simply as it is, and nothing can right the wrong.

Maybe redemption is really just like an asymptotic curve - always moving, but never really achieving. One can do a hundred things to please people just to make himself feel better, but it doesn't eradicate the fact that he has made the mistake. I guess studying literature isn't really a waste of time afterall. At least it gets me thinking about things and linking it to reality. No wonder they call it the humanities.

I don't need people to remind me what I already know. As the saying goes, "tell me something I don't know".

I'm tired of being the one who appeases and gives in.

A hiatus, this blog shall go into,
Til' words be worthy again.


Ciao.

I lost my extra limb

Someone stole my phone in the morning. FYI, a very old, lao pok, cui, unfashionable, decayed phone.

Seriously, why would someone want that poor old buddy of mine? It is only worth 40 bucks to 50 at most. I'm more upset with the lost contacts and SMSes. Yes I keep many SMSes which are worth keeping and remembering. And I lost the entire SD card inside my phone, which contains all my pictures. (ok, pictures are secondary). What upsets me the most, however, is the phone itself. I really like my phone despite it being so cui. I didn't mind holding on to it despite previous offers of changing it from my Dad.

So anyway, I cancelled the phone line, and immediately made a trip to Westmall's Hello Shop, only to be told that Daddy has to be around in order for me to replace a new SIM card. And now, time seems to be crawling, just waiting for Daddy to come home and have dinner, before heading to Westmall again. Somehow without my phone around, I feel so lost and sian. Even playing SF4 just now in an effort to cheer myself up proved to be futile. Trying to nap was worse because my good ol' buddy wasn't beside me.

Nonetheless, thank God I deleted a couple of messages just last night, which contained some personal information of a couple of friends. Phew!

The W800i is gone.... and it feels like I'm missing a limb.

Vrrooom

Sat on a bike for the very first time yesterday! Was my cousin's pillion from the eatery to Grandma's place. I would say it's a rather exciting experience, just that it gets a lil' scary when the bike is coming to a halt. Samantha, unfortunately, got burnt by the engine when she sat on the bike when we reached Grandma's place, leaving a big ugly mark (which I think looks like a burnt sausage hehehe). Here's a picture. There're actually a few blisters on it.

Anyway, Uncle Doctor Jonathan and Aunty Teacher Kailing came over to have dinner and visit Samantha, and gave good medical advices to us :) Thereafter we had a crazy time playing PS3 =P Really appreciate the visit JonKling! Thank God for the both of you.

Monkey thinks, monkey agrees

Hamlet
Do you see yonder cloud that's almost in shape of a camel?

Polonius
By the mass, and 'tis like a camel indeed.

Hamlet
Methinks it is like a weasel.

Polonius
It is backed like a weasel.

Hamlet
Or like a whale.

Polonius
Very like a whale.

Amazing Baker and SAHM

I really love this site, Happy Home Baking, and admire the owner of the blog. Her food and pastries are amazing, and she takes every effort to make them look presentable. Most importantly, she makes sure that the food she cooks and cakes she bakes are healthy for her kids. If you do visit the site, take some time to look through her older posts. It's amazing how she involves her sons in the baking process, like kneading dough which I seriously don't know how to do. She even decorates the cakes/biscuits/food to make them look presentable. What's even better is she doesn't keep any secrets about the ingredients she used. When people ask her about the brand of ingredients, she willingly let them know what exactly she had used to bake her cakes.

Kudos to this happy baker and SAHM. I wish I had her talents for baking and cooking =p

Church Camp

Really thankful that my parents have given me the green light to go for church camp this year, despite me being quite broke and still struggling to fund for my braces =) Have been wanting to go for the camp for quite some time, but nobody I really knew was going. Now that Kling is going, I don't have to worry about that!

Hopefully Lydia can make it for the camp too =)

Post Exams Trauma?

I just had one of the weirdest dreams ever. It was related to what I studied fore exams.

I dreamt that there was a curse and prophecy going on (from Oedipus Rex), and someone (not going to mention who) escaped to prevent the prophecy from coming true, but failed ultimately. The murderers are from this cult group called Polixines (from Shakespeare's A Winter's Tale), and my role in the whole dream was to call the police, whom refused to believe me.

Weird..

Bringing back the childhood laughter

Animaniacs is possibly one of my most favourite cartoon as a child. With all the childhood innocence, Animaniacs (with Pinky and the Brain) was well, just a cartoon that all kids watch. Watching some episodes again just brought back so much memories, but it is only now which I realised so many parodies and slapstick humour, which I couldn't have understood as a child.

Exams are over! I can breeeeatthhhheeeee!

URGHH

I'm a POE: Prisoner of Examinations


Gonna enter into another torture chamber tomorrow. I'm gonna be seriously whipped by chains of Shakespeare.

And then I'll face the cell again on Thursday.


Gonna enter into two torture chambers on Friday!

First chamber: Boiling water of the approaches to drama
Second (and last) chamber: Electric chair of Sensibility and Romanticism (how ironic)



I'm sure my hair is gonna be like Freakazoid after the shock.

But no worries. These examinations only torture but don't kill... which is worse, isn't it?

hadoken!

Daddy bought SF4 today!!! (we all will chip in for it) And we all agreed that he keep it in his room and take it out next Friday, after my last paper. The closest I got to the game was just to open it up and read the manual.

6 more gruelling days!!!

American Idol

Stumbled upon the results while searching for this video.. Urgh.. Wanted to give myself a surprise by waiting until 10.50pm before the results are out. Matt isn't my favourite contestant, but I think he's quite good (and rather charming) with the piano this time round. Nice song too!

Not good

Typing this in the library now.. Need a break from my revision!

I dreamt of two unpleasant things during my one-hour nap in the morning. Two dreams which echoed a couple of my fears/peeves. Firstly, I dreamt that my new pair of specs got so badly scratched that I couldn't even wear it. Secondly, I dreamt that one of my African lit novels was badly scribbled by my tuition kid's cousin.. so badly scribbled that I couldn't study for my exam. I realized that these two dreams portray what I most consciously try to avoid. Ever since I got my pair of specs, I clean it everytime and put it nicely back into the box. As for books, I really cannot tolerate writing in them..makes me lose my interest in reading them.

And I think I'm being punished for being proud. Was telling Stella yesterday that I have a really strong resistance against falling ill. Apparently that's not very true, cuz I caught a cold while studying in the school library yesterday. Have been sneezing non stop even until now. Or maybe it's just the exam stress hehe.. I remember falling sick one week before the exams last semester. But then again, I'm not exactly feeling that stressed. Sub-conscious?

Okay, back to work. First paper tomorrow! Hope the sore throat and runny nose run away!

Run away... run away.. ruuunnnn away and never return! ( from The Lion King)

Breakfast at Leong's

One year ago, on Good Friday, Stella and I prepared breakfast for the family (Check March 2008 under archives). This year, we decided to do the same, but the menu has changed. This year, we prepared pancakes with sausage and scrambled eggs.

The pancake mix

Stella was in-charged of cooking the pancakes

The eggs.

Sausages in the oven

All set!

Food on the table!

Skippy waiting for his chance

Juice and the food
The food, upclose
Apparently I bought the wrong type of syrup
As usual

Yum yum!

It is finished! (nearly)

I finally completed my last essay, at 5a.m. I could literally feel myself floating at 4a.m.. suddenly the words looked like they're floating too. When I profread my essay just now, I realised that there were many stupid grammatical errors.. Haha!

Exams start next Wednesday! (So fast!) But it'll end pretty soon too. 8 more days to freedom!! Gonna list out what I wanna do after exams end.

1) Have a good sleep
2) Buy SF4!!! (and train!)
3) Practice Fifa 09
4) Finish reading books which I've abandoned for my Lit books
5) Try to exercise

The list goes on, but I'm looking forward to these 5 first!

Touched ;__;

I have to blog about this before I continue with my work.

Lydia and Kailing gave me a surprise visit at my house just now! They came because they knew I was feeling rather down lately, so made a decision to cheer me up. Really have to thank my mum for keeping mum about it =p She actually made me believe that her friend needed help with the computer, and would be coming over so that I could help her. I actually cancelled tuition lesson for that.

Anyway, I was really in a daze when they came in. Really glad that they came. We had fun playing the PS3,talking and eating chips, and of course, bullying Skippy (and Lydia).

Thank you Kailing and 傻傻! (oops, i mean Lydia!) Love you girls loads :)

Reflections

Is it too late to reflect upon 2008?

I was just thinking about my life in general, and it's such a sad thing that I didn't achieve ANYTHING in 2008. 2007 wasn't too bad. My application to a local university was successful, but that's it.

What had 2008 actually brought me? Disappointment, come to think of it.. I achieved nothing, my results were worse than the toilet paper, and I didn't grow as a person. I can't imagine how childish and stupid I was (and still am), making silly decisions and regretting them thereafter. It felt as if I've closed my eyes and walked through 2008, just like that. Simple-minded; spineless- as if just following orders. I thought that I thought, but those weren't thoughts. They were just castles in the air. Ludicrous.

And so, the year ended just like that. 2008 simply spilling into 2009. Where was the boundary? No wonder they say time flies.


This year, there are things I wanna achieve, which I shan't be disclosing. Well, I don't even know if they are called achievements at the end of the day.


I stink, therefore I am.

In short,

I feel like I'm living in the space of Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead.

Ill-defined, as are Ros and Gui.

Post mod

As much as I really love the theories of post-modernism and philosophy, i think they have the potential of becoming the very cause of some kind of self-destruction.

I wanna leave on a jet plane!

How I wish I can live a reclusive life right now.
And this life must not be in Singapore.

Having some tentative plans to travel in December. I would love to travel alone, but figure that it would be wiser not to travel alone to a place which I've never been before. Have asked a couple of people already, but I think they have other plans :( Jetstar offers some really cheap deals (exclude taxes, of course), and I guess if I start saving now, it should be enough for me to go somewhere in December.

Currently having two places in mind. Darwin, NT. Many people say that Darwin has practically nothing, but that is what I want. A place that's peaceful and serene, with lots of greenery, nature parks, farms etc. Weather's not too cold nor hot either, but then I'd better read up Lonely Planet thoroughly before making a decision.

Another place is Vietnam! Won't be following my family to Vietnam in May, cos they'll just be touring around HCMC. Kit just came back from his 3 weeks holiday in Vietnam, and hearing him talk about Vietnam just makes me wanna see the place for myself too, particularly Sapa, Ha Long Bay, and the DMZ. Apparently in Sapa, you get to stay with the villagers in their farms! I can only tell him that his three weeks was the epitome of the phrase, "c'est le vie!". He sounded even more excited when he told me about Vietnam compared to the last time he went to Europe!

Soon.. the horrible essays and exams will be over, and I'll be able to work during the holidays to save money! =D

areyouken?

JM showed me this really funny comic strip. A good parody of the SF attacks. Had a really good laugh.

AREYOUKEN - hadouken!

SUREYOU'REKEN - shoryuken!

And I finally K.O one essay! 3 more essays and 1 mid-term quiz to K.O!

Tuesday blues

Rain is beautiful, but not when you have to go to school.

It's amazing how sometimes, when you least expect for something to happen or to see someone, it actually happens. Conversely, when you most expect for the same things to happen or to see someone, and even make preparations for them, everything just doesn't work out. Maybe this has to do with the whole self-conscious idea. When you are self-conscious, everything falls apart. Hmm..

And I don't understand, why there are some people in the world who are just out there to piss you off. To tell myself not to be bothered with them is nearly impossible, because those are some of the feelings which I have no control over.

May God grant me patience.

ARGGHHHH!

My external HDD crashed AGAIN! I got it replaced last April, and now it has crashed simply because I formatted it. Thankfully I took out all my films before it was formatted, and there aren't any other important files, since all my films take up 95% of the space! Maybe it's time to get a new HDD.. something that can contain more stuff. And yes, it had to crash after I came back from the IT fair. At least 8Flags is selling at a price that puts a smile on my face.

But still, it's really very frustrating, and no way am I gonna make a weary and perilous journey again to the godforsaken part of Changi. Totally no public transport into the factory area, and it takes slightly less than 30 minutes to walk to the production factory from the nearest bus stop!

ARGGGHH! (like KTA =p )

Manchester United got thrashed rather badly..

They shall thrash Liverpool in virtual world.

Just like the wind that blows

Am I forgotten?

Have I forget?

Maybe it's just a facade, or the foundations were never strong.

Just like an avalanche; into the ground, it has plunged headlong.

For whatever memories that were considered so dear

Seemed to prove that they were all surreal.

Have I forget?

Am I forgotten?

The friend of my boredom, and the foe of my time.

"LEARNING IS FUN AND EXCITING AT NTU"

-laughs scornfully-

Not so screwed up afterall

Last week, I caught Marley and Me at CCK, and it wasn't until I went home and talked about the show with my sister, that I realised that what I have watched was different from what my sister watched. The clip that was projected for me was totally disjointed in sequence. No wonder I came out of the cinema rather confused because the show did not make much sense.

Anyway, feeling really unhappy and unsatisfied, I emailed Shaw to voice out the problem, and thankfully, they have already investigated the matter, admitting that there indeed were some projection problems. The man in-charged assured me in the email that disciplinary action will be taken on the projectionist. Urm, that sounds quite scary actually.. I hope that projectionist doesn't lose his job because of this. Nonetheless, I must commend Shaw for their efficiency and friendly customer service.

On a brighter note, they will send me 2 free movie passes! =D Can watch Watchmen! Yeah!

I didn't handle many things well, and I made many mistakes.

Too bad I can't turn back time.

A Hard Day's Night

"It's been a hard day's night, and I been working like a dog,
It's been a hard day's night, I should be sleeping like a log. "
-Beatles

In my case, however, it's
"It's been a hard day's night, and I am sleeping like a log,
It's been a hard day's night, I should be working like a dog"

Aww

My cousin Liling is so cute and sweet. She called me immediately upon hearing the news of the murder at school to make sure I was fine.

I'm indeed still alive and kicking.

.

Another guitar version of 'The Entertainer', performed by Tommy Emmanuel. Jon you're right! this guy's good too =)

Was reading up on Tommy Emmanuel, and he's a great fan of Chet Atkins. They even recorded an album together, 'The Day Finger Prickers Took Over the World'. Gonna get my hands on those if i can find it! =D

The Entertainer - Scott Joplin

I'm currently learning how to play this on the piano, and thought it'd be interesting if it was played on the guitar.

I think it sounds really great on the guitar! Chet Atkins is really talented =p

What a shame

I received a mailer in my NTU mailbox from an NTU personnel, regarding a programme organised by an external company. As not much details were provided in the brochure, I emailed the company itself to clarify my questions. Probably being lazy in just answering 2 simple questions, he/she requested me to ask the NTU personnel instead, since she has received all the information.

Fair enough.

So I emailed the NTU personnel, and asked the same 2 simple questions. Guess what her reply was?
"Please direct your enquiries to XXX (not revealing which company it is)"

What kind of system is this? Pushing around the job of just answering 2 simple questions? Fine if the NTU personnel doesn't know the details, because seriously, the brochure doesn't provide the most important detail: the deadline for submission of application.

What a shame.

Old school: Troll dolls

Remember these... ?

I don't see them in stores anymore. =(
And I think the pink one is more common!

Life with Braces - Day 4

Chicken nuggets
Subway
Vegetables
Chicken
Beef
Pork
Some remaining CNY goodies like prawn roll and cereal-mashmallow
Vongole
Chips
Chocolate

and the list goes on..

I can't eat all these food. I feel so terrible when I see people eating these stuff, but I can't touch them (at least not now). I can't chew or bite, and I'm taking forever to brush my teeth, brushing my teeth almost after every meal and before I sleep. I'm so, so upset.

Ohwells, I chose this path anyway.. Just gonna bear with it for the next year and a half.

I wanna watch 'Valkyrie' and 'Marley and Me'!

P.S: Operation Valkyrie is more commonly known as the 20th July plot.
Cool...

-

Sometimes, it's best to just take refuge in reticence.

Wordsworth

I WANDERED LONELY AS A CLOUD
I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars
that shine and twinkle on the Milky Way,
They stretched in never-ending line
along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
in such a jocund company:
I gazed - and gazed - but little thought
what wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils,

-William Wordsworth

Not just because I have to memorise this by heart, but I think this is a rather beautiful poem. Probably one of the nicer poems I've enjoyed reading so far. By the way, the daffodils in the picture above are really beautiful. :)

"God doesn't plan for anyone to be a loser"
My dear kira couldn't have put it more aptly. What she mentioned has put some fresh insights in my mind now, and I guess it's half a burden off my shoulders with this thought in mind. That being said, I still need to decide and make up my mind soon.

Making decisions, whether major or trivial, aren't exactly the easiest things to do, especially when circumstances call for you to either please one or another, or rather, please another person or myself. Often times I fail to decide according to what pleases God, which should be primary. As I grow, I've come to realise that decision making has taken on a new level, and one wrong decision will just land me in dire consequences. Needless to say, there were many bad decisions I've made in life, but it's good to learn from the mistakes made. As the saying goes, 'once bitten, twice as shy'.

What does it really mean to have wisdom in decision making? It's something that's so easy to say, yet difficult to fathom.

I like to ask myself sometimes, if a particular scenario were to happen, how would I make my decision? Unfortunately I can never come up with a proper answer (as usual), and it's even worse when it really happens and you're caught in the web of dilemma.


Frustrating...

Tomorrow is a mystery

From the musical 'Annie'...

The sun'll come out, tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar, that tomorrow
There'll be sun!

Just thinking about, tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs, and the sorrow
'Til there's none!

When I'm stuck in a day
That's gray and lonely
I just stick out my chin
And grin and say

The sun'll come out, tomorrow
So you gotta hang on 'til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I love ya, tomorrow
You're always a day away


Annie was just a kid when she sang that. Does she know reality?


And 'Annie' is merely fiction.

明天真的会跟好,meh？

It's too late

For this first time in my NTU life, I visited the School of ADM (Art, Design, and Media) website. Looking at the title, Bachelor in Fine Arts in Photography and Digital Imaging, I can't help but feel a tinge of regret for not exploring more when I was choosing my courses. Why was I so stupid to just limit myself to the humanities? Why was I such a lazy bum when I knew that a portfolio had to be submitted for admission to the school?

Yada yada yada...

That being said, it's not that I dread what I'm doing now. I still love Literature.

And the truth/conclusion of the whole matter is

There is nothing honourable in it, and definitely nothing to be proud of.

Hello! Chinese New Year around the corner, so I am helping my mum advertise her CNY Goody Specialty - Pineapple Tarts!

Orders for open tarts are closed!

My mum will just make closed tarts :)

Prices are as follow:

Closed tarts - 35 pieces for $18/-

Let me know if you are interested ok! Orders will close on 15th Jan 2009 :)
SMS/MSN me!

Like a wailing kid

I remember when I was still helping out in the kindergarten, there were a few kids who couldn't stop crying because they dreaded school and couldn't bear to leave their parents.

My heart feels like this now.

Lecture starts in 9 hours' time, and how I wish time can just be rewinded or frozen. I have never dreaded school that much. Maybe it's because of the month that has just past. It was like a roller coaster ride of emotions. Sometimes there was happiness, but most of the times it was filled with disappointment, sadness, bleakness, and what-not. Nonetheless, through this unhappy episode, I've realised the importance of family and friends. There are in fact, many people who cared and were there for me, supporting me and giving me insights. Thank God for these people indeed :)

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know Who holds tomorrow
And I know Who holds my hand.